Orphanage visit

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Limy called up this morning to remind me about our visit to an orphanage in Subang.

"Don't forget to bring your tarantula." Limy said.

As a matter of fact, I was having second thoughts about bring my tarantula to an orphanage, reason is that I have no clue how will the children and guardian react to spiders that is 6 inches in leg span and I was afraid that the tarantula might hurt someone or get hurt itself. However, the opportunity of educating people about tarantulas excites me enough to ignore my worries, so I packed up my Curly Hair tarantula and head to the orphanage.

Lokman playing with one of the cats that the orphans keeps as pet.

I met up with Limy, Tenten and Lokman at Giant, Subang and they lead me to the orphanage, the first thing that hit my mind when I first saw the orphanage was that the place was very well taken care of and I couldn't see how I can help these children in anyway.
Before we get to see any kids, we meet up with one of the care taker who is in the office, it was my first time there so Limy introduced me to the care taker. We were informed that the kids were still in the class so we'll have to wait for them to finish to go visit them, not a big issue since I got nothing on for the day and their cat was feeling playful at that time.

It was time to meet the kids, we got them to sit down in the hall and then we introduce ourselves, and asked to see if anyone likes or dislike spiders, and it seems only one girl raise up her hands when we asked who likes spiders. So we started asking them questions about tarantulas, I wasn't too surprised that they are afraid of it and don't really know much about tarantulas due to the misconception, and I have Mr. Hollywood to thank for that.
It was a challenge for me to explain about tarantulas in Bahasa, it took me a longer time to do it.
With every explaination comes more questions, and yea! These kids aren't shy to ask questions, and that's an excellent thing for them and for me, at least they make sure I keep telling them about tarantulas and how they lived.
In 30 minutes or so I turn a room full of children whom are afraid of tarantulas into a room full of children who are curious to learn more about tarantulas they are so into it that they kept on asking me questions about tarantulas and how I keep them at home. While communicating with them, I find my initial toughts of me not being able to help them to be untrue, even thou they have a very establish place to stay, they still hunger for love and care this could only be given by a living human being.
Well, I've got alot of values during my visit there, and being able to be there for these kids really give me a sense of peace. The thing that got me worried at that time was when one of the orphan holding my Curly Hair Tarantula and asked "Boleh saya simpan labah labah ini?", I am not ready to part with my most docile tarantula so instead of letting them keep my pet, I allow them to name my Curly hair tarantula and it's name from today onwards is "Comel"

Dennis eye view of the orphans and "Comel"

This is not my desk

This is my desk, but that's only for 8 hours, I didn't quit the job nor was I fired.
My current job requires me to run around, I work where ever I can, someday I get a nice table like this, some time I don't get to sit on a chair to work, or if I get lucky, I get to work in the pantry where the coffee comes free.

How blur can I be?

I got to admit, I'm very blur to things that's happening around me. Previously I think that I'm extremely alert to my surroundings but in just one morning I realised that I'm a very absent minded person expecially when performing multiple tasks. I'll tend to forget something when another task comes by and it became clear to me that this is how I lived my life.
Just because I'm busy I've become forgetful, keep on giving myself the bullshit that I am busy so it's OK that I forget something. What a load! I forget things even when I'm not busy!
There is something about me I have to improve, I will not try to do it, I will improve!!!

More work?

"Hello Assistant General Manager! When free come out yumcha?"
That was the first thing that my friend, Wang said when he answered my call. Yes, I've changed my job, and this time my job title is Project Engineer cum coordinator.
My job is to plan and coordinate a team to get the project done, I've just finished my 1st week at work and so far I felt that it is a total disaster. I got no experiance in coordinating or managing people so the 1st 3 days, due to my inexperiance the project was in a total mess. Many forms aren't properlly filled, team member not turning up for work, tasks are not properlly distributed and there were more IT equipment then I had expected. In the end of the week, I've only managed to get most of the IT equipment tagged except for the server room and one network room. It will take another 2 days to get that done, I'm not worried because I know it can be done.

Look Ma! I'm on TV!

My boss called up at 8.45am asking me where was I as he was expecting me to be at the job site. "Oh! I'm still at home watching TV." Only day 2 on my new job and I'm already saying things like that to my boss, well at least I'm being honest.
Now, why would I be late for work and watch TV when I don't usually watch it?
That's because I was on it, last week I've attended a tarantula gathering cum interview by RTM2 at Asia Cafe, they didn't interview all of us but I was one of the people whom got interviewed.
I told my mom about my little tarantula meet up and the interview I've also informed her the channel and time (8.00am) they will air it, 7.30am she's already at the TV standing by, waiting for her son to make an appearance on TV. She's still proud that I got my face on the papers, carrying a copy everywhere she goes, showing it to friends and relatives.
It's good to see her so proud and happy, I'd do it more often just to make her happy.


Credits to Adam

I'm the great pretender?

I asked a friend for some feed back about me and he said
"sometimes i feel tat u are pretending"

It struck me that I've pretend a lot and yes, I admit it.
Pretending to know what I'm doing or talking about, but in fact I don't even have a clue, why am I pretending on such things? To impress people? To make myself look good? Aah... fuck, bloody waste of time.
When I'm unhappy about something, I will pretend that nothing has happened or pretend that I'm OK with it, I keep everything to myself so that others can be happy or what so ever.
Pretending to be happy is the saddest thing to do, try being happy when someone you cared for says "You are not important." try to fake your expression will automatically put a big neon sign telling the world that you are being plastic. Personally I've experience it myself, I mean, try to pretend you are being nice to someone but in reality that person hates you. It really annoys me a lot to have somebody pretending to be nice to me and it made me realized that how the people whole I pretend to like really felt.
Why on earth am I doing such nonsense on to myself? Kinda pissed at myself when I come to think about it. What a major fuck up thing to do, great pretender my ass!