This is not my desk

This is my desk, but that's only for 8 hours, I didn't quit the job nor was I fired.
My current job requires me to run around, I work where ever I can, someday I get a nice table like this, some time I don't get to sit on a chair to work, or if I get lucky, I get to work in the pantry where the coffee comes free.

How blur can I be?

I got to admit, I'm very blur to things that's happening around me. Previously I think that I'm extremely alert to my surroundings but in just one morning I realised that I'm a very absent minded person expecially when performing multiple tasks. I'll tend to forget something when another task comes by and it became clear to me that this is how I lived my life.
Just because I'm busy I've become forgetful, keep on giving myself the bullshit that I am busy so it's OK that I forget something. What a load! I forget things even when I'm not busy!
There is something about me I have to improve, I will not try to do it, I will improve!!!

More work?

"Hello Assistant General Manager! When free come out yumcha?"
That was the first thing that my friend, Wang said when he answered my call. Yes, I've changed my job, and this time my job title is Project Engineer cum coordinator.
My job is to plan and coordinate a team to get the project done, I've just finished my 1st week at work and so far I felt that it is a total disaster. I got no experiance in coordinating or managing people so the 1st 3 days, due to my inexperiance the project was in a total mess. Many forms aren't properlly filled, team member not turning up for work, tasks are not properlly distributed and there were more IT equipment then I had expected. In the end of the week, I've only managed to get most of the IT equipment tagged except for the server room and one network room. It will take another 2 days to get that done, I'm not worried because I know it can be done.

Look Ma! I'm on TV!

My boss called up at 8.45am asking me where was I as he was expecting me to be at the job site. "Oh! I'm still at home watching TV." Only day 2 on my new job and I'm already saying things like that to my boss, well at least I'm being honest.
Now, why would I be late for work and watch TV when I don't usually watch it?
That's because I was on it, last week I've attended a tarantula gathering cum interview by RTM2 at Asia Cafe, they didn't interview all of us but I was one of the people whom got interviewed.
I told my mom about my little tarantula meet up and the interview I've also informed her the channel and time (8.00am) they will air it, 7.30am she's already at the TV standing by, waiting for her son to make an appearance on TV. She's still proud that I got my face on the papers, carrying a copy everywhere she goes, showing it to friends and relatives.
It's good to see her so proud and happy, I'd do it more often just to make her happy.


Credits to Adam

I'm the great pretender?

I asked a friend for some feed back about me and he said
"sometimes i feel tat u are pretending"

It struck me that I've pretend a lot and yes, I admit it.
Pretending to know what I'm doing or talking about, but in fact I don't even have a clue, why am I pretending on such things? To impress people? To make myself look good? Aah... fuck, bloody waste of time.
When I'm unhappy about something, I will pretend that nothing has happened or pretend that I'm OK with it, I keep everything to myself so that others can be happy or what so ever.
Pretending to be happy is the saddest thing to do, try being happy when someone you cared for says "You are not important." try to fake your expression will automatically put a big neon sign telling the world that you are being plastic. Personally I've experience it myself, I mean, try to pretend you are being nice to someone but in reality that person hates you. It really annoys me a lot to have somebody pretending to be nice to me and it made me realized that how the people whole I pretend to like really felt.
Why on earth am I doing such nonsense on to myself? Kinda pissed at myself when I come to think about it. What a major fuck up thing to do, great pretender my ass!