And you waited and waited and waited...

I have many goals in my life, I didn't realised it until very recently. The issue is that I'm very focus, however I'm focus on my considerations rather then being focus on my goals and because of my focus on considerations, my goals becomes a lost memory.
It's very sad to me that in the past I do have dreams, but I allowed reasons like no time, too lazy, economy not good and such from stopping me in reaching my goals.
I do not believe that I don't have what it takes to do what I want, I just wait too long, waiting for thing to happen but not taking action.
What will be diffrent for me from now on is that I'll take charge about what I want to do, and not become a player in the waiting game.

Heng's Pancakes

All these time, it was usually mom who does all the cooking while I'll be the one who consumes everything and to see me near a stove usually means I'm cooking instant noodles. Last night Timmy was saying something about making pan cakes for breakfast for his parents and I was thinking "Hey, pan cakes aren't that hard to make." so I decided to make pan cakes for my family too.
This morning I got up early and was really eager to make pan cakes for the family, I followed the recipe from the link that Timmy gave me and I managed to make the batter nice and smooth. I my mind's eye I already can see my family enjoying pan cakes.

Heat a lightly oiled griddle or frying pan over medium high heat. Pour or
scoop the batter onto the griddle, using approximately 1/4 cup for each pancake.
Brown on both sides and serve hot.

This is the instructions that I needed to follow to cook the pan cake batter, however I have no idea how but I've intemperate it to "I need 1/4 cup of melt butter to make a pan cake."...
Disaster! 1st pan cake turn out very badly, looked like some one sat on it... so I say to myself, maybe making a round pan cake needs practice and there I was making ugly pan cakes one after another and I didn't have the slightest clue that I have misinterpret an instruction. That's my lesson on using my cellphone as a web browser, the screen is so small that it's very difficult to understand what you are really reading.

Pan cakes from HELL!

I told myself that at least these came from the heart and then it struck me, if these pan cakes came from the heart, I must have a really ugly heart... "Perhaps it just looks ugly but it might taste good." I tooked a bite and spit the thing out... it was salty because I fried it with melt butter. I show it to my mom and she asked what was it?
She took a bite and say "Too salty. Maybe this one will taste better."
Too bad that it wasn't cooked enough... down to the bin it is I guess.

It didn't turn out this time, but I'm certain that I'll be able to make perfect edible pan cakes next time.

What the F*** am I doing?

For the past month I've been living like a mad man, I don’t know if that’s the best term to describe it but now my project date line is closing in soon and I'm behind schedule, yet I’m organizing an event or I should call it a small get together for my tarantula group, aside from that I must find time to go to the gym, trying to get things done up, down, left, right really is like running away from a black hole.
Even my friends noticed that I'm stressing myself to a point that I'm beating myself up mentally, come to think of it, that's what I've been doing for a long time now... anytime something which I'm not happy about happen, I'll punish myself by doing something else.
"What happen to the Heng I used to know? I wish you could be the passionate Heng that shows up every time we have outdoor activities, like camping, hiking and stuff." Timmy said. I do realised that when I escape from my normal life I'd feel very peaceful. Wish I could archive tha state and live my life at the same time.

Charity Car Wash

There will be a charity car wash on 6th Oct 2007 starting from 8.30am to 6.30pm at Oriental Medicine & Therapy, 26 & 28 Jalan 21/11b, Sea Park.
Do come and support us

I will remember you fat uncle

Thank you for the love and care that you've share, now that you are no longer with us, I'll always remember you.